musicless praise

I never thought I’d find myself here…

You know… music has always turned my soul loose.  I think everyone is a musician inside.  Sure, not everyone can carry a tune… but I think everyone has music inside of them.   And even with practice I believe each and everyone has a singing voice in there. 

But…  things are just so different now. 

Where once I was surrounded by music, now daily it is just a struggle of school and crying babies.  Bottles and spills.  Diapers and long moments of anything but silence.  

And the internet is set by a “governor”…  in a way.  Like a governor would only let you go so fast in a vehicle- we can only use so much information in a month.  

That just doesn’t leave much left.  Not much left for fun or music in my world.  There once was a time when I would research all of the latest out there for my team to sing and play.  Look up neat ways to praise God.  

Now I find my praise in other things…

Teaching,

Reading the word,

Crying,

Growing children

Tending to cracked souls…

For aren’t we all tattered and torn in some way?

So for now… this list… this list has become my music,

My praise…